I've been easing into the fast since saturday and steadily incorporated more juices throughout my day. I had my usual green juice for breafast and then these two baby's for Sunday's and Monday's lunch:
|Green Pineapple Juice - recipe to be posted on the blog later|
|Watermelon juice - a lot more than pictured here|
I usually had a piece of fruit for a snack in the afternoon, followed by a light dinner: a fruit platter (because I thought: hell, I'm going to have to miss those summer fruits I've been longing so long for for a while) and a light detox salad.
By Monday evening the first detox symptoms set in with full force. I had a massive headache, to the extent I was crying my eyes out, determined to give up even before I had a full-on juice day. I was thinking about what I was going to eat the next day (I absolutely wanted a banana), doubting even if I would get up for a midnight snack and about how I was going to portray my failure on the blog, all the while the headache was still rampaging through my body. About one a.m., when I couldn't stand the pain any longer I took a pain killer (fail) and finally fell asleep.
Luckily in the morning I had a skype session with Marie-Claire and she was able to pick me up. She helped me see that the pain I was experiencing was the pain of my past so to speak. This was the pain I inflicted on myself with every binge, every sleeping pills overdose. The past always wants you back, because no matter how hellish it's what you know, what you've come to expect. But I refuse to go back. And so I dedicated myself to the fast once more.
Tuesday evening though, same story: a massive headache and the inability to sleep although being very tired. I sat this one out, only to awaken from a short and hazy slumber still with a headache, though a bit less intense. I'm still experiencing the pain as I type this and it really makes me question this whole experience: "Why am I doing this to myself?". This part sucks so badly, and I can't guarantee I will be strong enough to just endure, but part of me wants to experience the part that comes after this, I want to feel completely energized again, I want to be healed. So I'll try to stick with it.
|All the good stuff that went into my juices Tuesday|
|My juices for today|
But even if I don't stick it out until the end, I have faith that I won't return to my bingeing habbits either and will just keep enjoying my beautiful raw foods. It's dangerous to say that, I know. But I kind of have to believe it first, before I can make it true, if that makes any sense.
So for now, still juicing, but not happily so. I hope that my next update can be a more positive one. Sorry for the downer.
Do any of you have some good tips for how to handle a headache in a natural way? Please share!